Buried Dreams

‘It takes great love and courage to excavate buried dreams. Today is the day set aside for love, a perfect occasion for going within and glancing back with affection and understanding your real life journey so far.

Once we were going to set the world on fire. Remember? Today we all have our share of ashes, along with the memory of a few bright sparks, to show for our efforts. Over the years we’ve buried many a precious dream under layers of soot and rubble. Layers of naivete, good intentions, relinquishment, bitter failures, detours, disappointments, rejections, wrong choices, bad timing, bungled efforts, stupid mistakes, unforeseen circumstances, whims of fate and missed opportunities. It’s no wonder that we’ll need courage to retrace our steps. But “courage is the price that Life extracts for granting peace,” the pilot Ameila Earhart
reminds us.

A wise woman once advised me not the be a “would-be-if-I-could-be or a could-be-if-I-would-be. Just be.” And while I have learned that dreams need doing as much as they need being, I have learned that the being always comes first.

Today is a day for being. Be with those you love, be kind to yourself. Be quiet and call forth the dream you buried long ago. The ember is still glowing in your soul. See it in your mind, hold it tenderly in your heart. “The dream was always running ahead of one,” Anais Nin confessed. “To catch up, to live for a moment in union with it, that was the miracle.” ‘ -Sarah Ban Breathnach, Simple Abundance A Daybook of Comfort and Joy

What is perfect and happiness? And where do they truly exist… together?

There are many, many layers of naivete, bitter failures, disappointments, wrong choices, stupid mistakes, whims of fate and missed opportunity inside this gal.

Many.

But that is fine by me. It makes my chapters in life more valuable, more interesting, and more of a lesson to learn from than a life just handed to me with the paths already outlined and figured out.

Nothing is ever just easy. But that is part of this adventure, you see.

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Today I am grateful for:

Vibrantly full of life children– they are amazing, healthy, and beautiful. Each offering something uniquely special to our family and to this world.

Lenny– he makes me madder than a hornet sometimes (like that expression- thank my mother). But at the end of the day I love him. I am grateful for him. I appreciate him.

Anniversaries– today many couples celebrate long lives together- Lenny’s parents, my parents, one of Lenny’s brother’s and his wife. It reminds me that love does last. People do make it work. Love is something that you nurture. Sometimes, younger spirits need to be reminded of this. In this day and time I think we need to be reminded more and more.

Miracles– they happen all around us and we overlook them. Open the eyes to your soul. Turn the light on. Today is a day for being.

Simplicity– this is what I seek… and it is what I will find.

‘Where there is great love there are always miracles.’ – Willa Cather